"..."

Actually, I don't want juju spend his holiday in Bangka. Even with his family.
I don't know, but..I'm so selfish yeah I know that.
I just worry about him, and worry about me.

God, what should I do?
I know he's really really want to go to Bangka, and meet his old friend, meet his father.
But I'm too selfish to said "yes"
I'm afraid, I'm afraid will lose him :(

God, help me :(
Help me God :(
Tell me what should I do now? :'(